I always knew 

Dancing Men was the title of Hunt and Cam's second 

I always knew what they would find, where and how the next mystery gets resolved. Though they aren't telling me who the killer is, yet.

But before I could get to writing any of that, I had to make sense of the world they live in. The one of many possible realities, the 240th dimension, the parallel earth, the Ficworld. But Ficworld is so much like our world, even the time is the same. And there are a lot of people we know who live there, also. Ben Hart lives in a "castle" in his "domain" and maintain's Avia safely in his "keep." 

Hunt's been there. To the Keep. And Ben's brother showed up at SANH, so the characters spill over into one another's business. And the  timeline has to match. Which is problematic when you are in the position of being Goddess/Creator (that's moi) and already know the story and aren't sure if the appearance of a person in one place doesn't violate the space/time continuum. Which is also the same for the Fics and the Reals. 

Not sure about calling me/us the "reals" because how do we know? Sounds like making everyone else the "unreals." Even less sure about the Goddess/Creator bit. Feels a damn sight more like Stenographer the CEO and COO. 

Not sure who's which, though.

ANYWAY.... That was my first writing day. Timelines and going by SANH and finding a bunch of blueprints all over the matchstick game coffeetable and guys measuring the parking lot.  

Things are changing and I am way behind the information curve. I just did find out where Hunt went when he left the hospital. Srsly, you'll never guess.

I didn't. 



FOR SIX YEARS a continuous ongoing firestorm of a debate raged over something called "Johnlock."

For those unfamiliar, "Johnlock" was (and for some is still) the idea that John Watson and Sherlock Holmes (on the BBC show "Sherlock") loved each other romantically, could barely restrain themselves from plunging into one another's various orifices and were destined at some point in the show to declare their passion for one another.

Some people politely and quietly subscribed to this theory. But it never seems to be the courteous many who are most heard from. It it the screaming, bigoted, ugly-ass minority. The ones who declared anyone who disagreed as seeing the world through a "hetero-normative lens" and being, essentially, gay haters.

It was never that the majority simply didn't interpret the looks as being sexual or the love the men shared as being romantic. There opinions were apparently deep character flaws. (I am one of the flawed, BTW, for any die-hard Johnlockers who GAS.)

In 2017 what very well might be the last episode of Sherlock that will ever be made aired. The writers knew it and wrote it as a series ending season.

There was no kissing or declaration or anything at all for the extremist Johnlockers to hang their theory on. They did not apologize. Instead, they attacked one of the writers as some sort of gay Uncle Tom. Which is so horrible, even an old internet head like myself has a hard time fathoming it.

The On His Knees "controversy." 

There's a kind of writer's meme that says a story is created at least twice: once when it's told and once when it's heard. People see very different things in art - whether visual or written. Or sung/played, I suppose. And that's not only normal, it's a good thing.

An edit appeared on a review of On His Knees on Amazon, bringing up the idea of controversy.
When a reader goes to the trouble of posting a review and then comes back to express her opinion, I feel like I owe that concern some attention.  So-

-does Cam sexually assault Hunter? 

Hunter doesn't seem to think so. I never thought so. Cam doesn't think so, either. In fact, he was insulted at the implication.

But this might be a personal issue for some. It might be the kind of thing that serves as a trigger for someone. In which case, they could be hard-pressed to experience the story any other way.

If so, I hope they avoid BDSM types of stories in future, because a sub saying "nonono" is a fairly standard occurrence and being ignored or even taunted by a Dom is part of what they like and want.

Dale Cameron Lowry addressed this in his review
Camden Snow is a dominant whose rules would get him kicked out of safe-sane-consensual BDSM circles. He doesn’t let his subs choose or use safewords, he doesn’t negotiate contracts, and his specialty is doing exactly the things that subs have previously established as hard limits.

Now, you could argue that this makes what Cam does consensual, because the subs that come to him are specifically looking for him to cross those forbidden boundaries. One of Hunter’s hard limits is bottoming. So when he kneels in front of Cam, Hunter knows it’s pretty much a guarantee that Cam will fuck him up the ass sometime during their scene. And if that’s what he’s looking for, then technically anal sex is no longer a hard limit for Hunter.

But saying he wants Camden to fuck him would make the actual fucking less humiliating, and Hunter has a psychological need to be thoroughly humiliated. So they toss aside safe-sane-consensual rules for the sake of the scene. It also serves the story’s plot well. But whether that’s a good idea for people to do in real life is a whole separate issue.

Note, Mr. Lowry doesn't say "You shouldn't do this." He says, "It's a separate issue."

I'm not going to speak directly to why Hunter needed and wanted what Cam gave him. I think that's something each reader can ponder for themselves, if they find it interesting.

The fact is, some Doms don't allow safewords. Some subs don't want them. Many people don't use condoms. BDSM clubs vary. Some have strict rules. Some have suggestions. Some are "whatever - pay your dues."

Hunter Dane and Camden Snow are a gift to me. My goal is to be true to them. That's my job. As readers, you complete the story. YOU write it. So there are many stories, each unique to you. And one unique to me.

What we see in Knees is a vignette of sorts. A scene in the Scene, in a world both fictional and realistic. In Matchstick Men, Cam takes Hunt home for dinner. They end up in Cam's bed.
Cam laid down on his side and pried one of Hunt's arms loose. He took Hunt's hand in his own and massaged it gently.  

"This isn't a scene. There're no restraints. We aren't in a club. Yeah, I'm still a Dom; I'm always that. But you can use safewords."

He smiled at Hunt's surprised expression. "Of course, you can. I want you to do what I say because you trust me to make you to feel good ..."
What is part of a scene is not necessarily what happens between lovers outside of a scene. Some make their whole relationship a kind of extended scene. Some have very definite boundaries between one and the other. It's a continuum. And no way is the "real" way. Or the "right" way.

Back to work, then. Thanks for reading.


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Let’s get a few things out of the way first. This isn’t a romance. ... On His Knees is erotica in the most basic sense: “stories written about the sexual journey of the characters and how this impacts them as individuals.” (Thanks for that definition, Sylvia Day!) And this particular journey is gritty and gut-wrenching. (source)

Here's what went in the ... about Knees:

There’s desire aplenty between the protagonists, but no romantic love.

It’s not stroke fiction, designed to get the average reader off as quickly and dramatically as possible while they hold the book with one hand.

It is erotica. But not in the sense of the (bad) American Heritage Dictionary definition of “literature or art intended to arouse sexual desire” or the (worse) Webster’s New World Dictionary definition of “pornographic books.” No.

Sylvia Day wrote a blog post a few years ago that has become the standard reference text on how to classify explicit sexual content prose. Dale Lowry summed much of
it up, beautifully, in a few words. But the part missing, might be the one Romance writers need to consider most closely:


stories written about the sexual journey of the characters and how this impacts them as individuals. Emotion and character growth are important facets of a true erotic story. However, erotica is NOT designed to show the development of a romantic relationship, although it’s not prohibited ... Happily Ever Afters are NOT an intrinsic part of erotica ...

Erotic Romance:

stories written about the development of a romantic relationship through sexual interaction. The sex is an inherent part of the story, character growth, and relationship development, and couldn’t be removed without damaging the storyline. Happily Ever After is a REQUIREMENT to be an erotic romance.

I changed the head to this blog and my Twitter and FB. If I'm writing Erotica, and I am, how can I make my theme "LOVE?" If there is no romance or Happily Ever After, how is On His Knees, in my opinion, a love story?

This is a comment from a review left on Gay Book Reviews:

But I will be honest and say that Hunter needs to open his eyes and realize what is in front of him before it is too late. I do not think that there is plans for another book about these two men but in a way I kind of hope there is and that Cam will get his happy ever after.

My bold. How did Natosha, this reviewer, see Romance and Dale Cameron, not see it? How do I say it's love and agree it's not a romance?

Because love is not a feeling. Cam loves Hunter, in that he puts his own needs aside and gives Hunt what he needs to heal. Is Hunter Dane a sociopath? Do you have to be able to feel something you call love in order to love? Can you ever be truly in love, if you don't?

The next morning, Hunt asks Cam a question:

“Did you come last night? On the Angel?” I interrupted him.
“No. It wasn’t about sex. Coming in you would be … rape. I don’t do that.” He looked offended like - How could you ask?
It was a wonder to me that he understood so perfectly that ramming his dick painfully into my ass was one thing, but using me for his own pleasure at that moment was so vastly something else it was unthinkable.
Cam loved him. I don't know that any of the Hunter/Camden books will have a classic HEA. But do believe, though I can't predict the future with these two, they will continue to love one another. And their journey to, or away, from one another, will be revealed through their sex lives.






SEX, GAMES & MURDER ~ Want to play?

It was munch night at the most elite underground BDSM club in the Rockies. Relaxed, and informal, highlighted by the weekly Matchstick Challenge game.
Detective Sergeant HUNTER DANE, reigning champion, looked forward to a relaxing evening to start his 3 days off. A few beers on the deck. An interlude with a sweet sub. Stumping a challenger with a new puzzle. Home early for a decent night's sleep.
But some people are so deadly serious about their games.
Now Hunt has a fresh body and a new puzzle to solve in twenty-four hours if he wants to find the killer.
A 48k police procedural with a liberal dose of M/M hotness. Which means our fave full-metal Dom shows up to collect on Hunter's offer of his ... coffer. For want of a better euphemism.
There are puzzles for the reader and mysteries to be solved. Based on characters introduced in the short story On His Knees. For adults.